A new plan

I feel like C-R-A-P.


I’ve been eating bad food, haven’t been to the gym in a week and haven’t had a good night’s sleep in… well… I guess last night I slept well.

Here’s the thing: I’ve been so crazy busy with school, I’ve been living off Ramen Noodles, coffee and beer and ignoring how I feel, which is sick.

Not good. Not good at all.

So, instead of allowing this to continue, I have created a plan!

My plan is to not do anything about anything until I wake up Friday morning. Why Friday? Fridays are always good days. Always. Always. (It cancels it out if you say it twice. -Stepmom)

Tomorrow, I have to teach, sit office hours, meet three different groups of people at three different times AND study for my exam Thursday night.

Thursday… I’ll be studying… and exam-ing. Boo.

So, Friday, after I teach and sit my office hours, I’ll be A-OK to run off to the gym and enjoy some treadmill.

I am well aware that my workout will suck. I’m prepared for that. So, instead of trying to kill myself on the treadmill or the rowing machine or the elliptical, I’m going to re-ease myself into the whole process.

On Friday, the world will return to normal… at least for skinnyshae. Regular Shae… she’s pretty much a spaz-face until she passes comps in a few semesters.

To be more interesting and less depressing, here are some of my favorite/most awkward Google search terms that get people to my blog…

-any variation of the following… “I Used to Be Fat” and “A&E’s Heavy,” which are the most popular

Crock Pot Pot Roast (No lie… I’m so good at this. And the world should know it.)

-Yoga Journal Birds of Paradise or Yoga Shiva Rea (Thank goodness!)

I’m addicted to coffee (and I’m glad I could help someone)

-What’s your body frame?

-Insanity fit test results female

-My personal favorite… “rambo nerf”

-sleeping German Shepherd or German Shepherd playing in the snow

TLC’s What Not to Wear Sarah

Eating disorders and gymnastics (Pray for this one.)

-overhanging forehead (???)

-cross ear tattoo (Wewt!)

disfigured tongue :(

cheap and healthy groceries


One in a lifetime opportunity…

Well, I have been unable to watch MTV’s “I Used to Be Fat” because of college. However, I caught the episode today of “Tanner.”

Now, I know that this week is Bridal Week… but this has to be said…

Tanner is not okay.

Tanner can suck it.

He had a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and threw it in the trash can. Tanner, you have made skinnyshae angry.

So mad.

Of course, I don’t have room to say much. I did not do my workout today… BUT I have a good reason: I spent all afternoon studying for a quiz, which didn’t turn out well because I’m pretty sure I bombed it, but I was still studying.

Good excuse in my book.

Video games? Not so much. General disregard for the gift you are given? Don’t think so.


A pleasant late morning

I slept until 11:12 this morning, which means I only had an hour to wake up, get dressed and get to the YMCA before my yoga class began.

I made it, but I didn’t have time to run before yoga and had no desire to run after yoga (plus I was starving because I didn’t eat breakfast – no time!).

I would feel bad, but it is a rare occasion when Husband and I get to sleep in bed at the same time, so I stayed in bed. We snuggled for about half an hour before I realized I had to get up or I would miss class completely. (And Lord know I don’t want to miss class because I love yoga.)

Instead of continuing to workout in any way, I came home, ate some of Husband’s chicken chili stew and a piece of dark chocolate that Ashley R. bought for me. She such a lovely present-giver. :)

Remember how I had class last night and couldn’t watch MTV’s “I Used to Be Fat?” Well, I saw half of the episode today, and these are my thoughts.

Point 1: Joey, the trainer, is gorgeous.

Point 2: Jordan, who turned to food for comfort after a rough childhood, weighed 272 pounds at his first weigh-in. One hundred and ten days later, Jordan weighed 205 pounds, five more lost than his goal and 15 pounds of muscle gained.

He changed his entire outlook on life and food and his relationship with his mother after his weight transformation. That’s pretty impressive. Now, he has life goals and works at a gym in order to get closer to being a personal trainer himself.

Losing weight changed Jordan completely.

He worked out six hours a day, six days a week, ate healthy food every day for every meal (no cheating after he got caught once) and LOST SO MUCH WEIGHT!

I work out usually five days a week nowhere near six hours. Can I do the same thing? What about you? What do you do to lose the weight?

(And do you sneak doughnuts, which I still haven’t eaten one, when you get a sugar craving?) :)


You know how they say, “Stressed is desserts spelled backwards?” Well, what if you are swearing off desserts and just ran out of dried cherries? What if you are avoiding sugar like the plague when all you want is a doughnut? What are you supposed to do?

I’ll tell you what: Take a nap. Unless, you are me, of course.

Unfortunately, I am unable to sleep because I’ll crash and miss my night class, in which I am sure I have an assignment of some kind (and because of said night class, I will miss “I Used to Be Fat” tonight and will probably be unable to report on it).

I did not workout today; and while I don’t have a good reason, I feel like I am justified.

I’m pooped.

My body is tuckered from exercise and being awake ALL the time. My brain is exhausted from reading chapter after chapter and research article after journal article.

I am just pooped.

I’m so tired I’m jealous of my crippled house cat who can sleep wherever and whenever he wants. Currently, the little snot is sprawled out next to me yawning and stretching and sleeping just like the little snot that he is.


I am also at very many levels of stressed out. My time is now torn between being a good student, being a good teacher, trying to see my friends, cooking, cleaning, studying, exercising, remembering to shower and brush my teeth and, most importantly, trying to spend time with Husband (who probably doesn’t want to hang out with his snippy, tired, smelly wife). And who could blame him, or any of my friends for that matter? I barely want to be around me right now.

My second semester of grad school has barely even started, and I’m already turning in a panicked spaz face. I do not like this version of Shae. She’s grumpy.

Hopefully, since I spent all afternoon determined to finish the readings for my three wonderful classes (which I did), I will feel less pooped and stressed out and want to workout.

What do you do when you’re stressed? Do you eat desserts? :) Or do you take the initiative and run off the stress? For me, I just want to take a nap.

Guess what’s for “Dinner Tonight…”???

HUSBAND COOKED IT! :) A delicious chicken chili stew – one of our favorites, but I haven’t the slightest idea what the real recipe is!

MTV’s “I Used to Be Fat” – Makenzie

(I got out of class early because everywhere in Kansas is frozen.)

Eighteen-year-old Makenzie is this week’s MTV’s “I Used to Be Fat” participant. She just graduated high school and has plans to go to cosmetology school.

As a child, Makenzie was never worried about being overweight, but as she grew up, her peers called her fat, which made her turn to food. In eating, she found satisfaction.

Makenzie’s family, especially her father, stresses the importance of marriage and having a “storybook romance,” and this is why she has to lose weight.

Instead of focusing on her health or body image or self-esteem, her father wants her to lose weight in order to fit into the image of a beautiful woman.  He put her down, told her men wouldn’t want her and absolutely murdered her self-esteem (in my opinion).

At the beginning of this episode, I hated her father.

“I don’t like guys because I know that they won’t like me,” she said. (Really? That’s terrible. I say, “Thanks Dad!”)

During his first visit, her personal trainer Mike emptied her kitchen of the processed foods and sweets that she had been eating. Her father volunteered to eat whatever Makenzie ate. (At least he plans on contributing in a positive way, but I still don’t like him.) Mike also came over and taught them all how to eat healthful meals.

Unfortunately, her parents (FATHER) are not into the healthful eating at all, and her brothers are jerks. I hope they gain 20 pounds each.

Thankfully, Mike knows why Makenzie needs to lose weight -unlike her family -health and self-esteem, doing it for you and not some guy, and exercising and dieting to please your body, not a body image.

Her starting weight was 273 pounds. She wants to lose at least 100 pounds in 99 days. At her first weigh in two weeks later,  she lost 10 pounds. After another week, she dropped only two pounds, hitting a massive wall.

Her father begins to push her to do better next week, as well as pressure her into thinking about her marriage. That made her feel like she would never be good enough to find a man to marry. Good job Dad! (Sarcasm.)

At a point like this, when weight loss plateaus, people need support, not constant reminders that no one thinks they are good enough.

I’m not surprised Makenzie was overweight  because of her environment. As Mike said, she is a product of her environment. It is unfortunate that her family didn’t take the time or make the effort to help her before this point. They are, in fact, loving, but I don’t think they’re doing it right for her.

At her next weigh in, Makenzie weighed 261 pounds. She lost no weight and discouragement settles in. Her next workouts are straining her commitment to exercise and weight loss.

Her struggle is not only with the scale; she also has to fight her own inner demons when it comes to working out.  I know a little bit about this one. She said working out is not something she is excited to do, which I also understand.

She hates it. I hate it, too, girl.

So Makenzie’s discouraged, and Mike calls a family meeting. Actions speak louder than words, he said. Her family needs to participate in her journey. Her brothers started her off by spending a work out playing soccer with her.

THANK GOD FOR THE YOUNGER BROTHER! He said Makenzie’s motivation should not be to find a guy. I like him now, as well as the other brother. They are not going to gain 20 pounds. Good job!

After her father worked out with her, he got to see what she did every day and how hard she worked, and he found a way to be proud of her. Okay Dad I’ll give you a break. You better pull through for her.

At 20 days to go she weighed 245 pounds, and she looks like she’s lost weight. She has lost about six dress sizes since the beginning of summer. At her final weigh in, after 99 days, Makenzie weighs 224 pounds. She lost a total of 49 pounds. While she is depressed, Mike reassured her that she can still beat the 51 pounds she has left before reaching her goal.

Excited but fearful, Makenzie has a heart-to-heart with her father before college. He finally makes her realize that she is beautiful no matter what, that she needs to be confident and that she doesn’t have to be perfect. Dad, you came through for your daughter. I’m proud of you.

I’m proud of you, too, Makenzie.

Three months later, Makenzie walks through the door of her family’s home and looks FANTASTIC! Her feelings about her body and herself are finally moving up the ladder just as her weight dropped down the chute (board game reference!). She weighs 197 pounds.

Makenzie’s transformation was not as drastic as Gabriella’s, Marci’s or Dominick’s transformations, but she still seriously kicked butt and officially looks amazing -especially since her confidence level is sooooo high!

MTV’S “I Used to Be Fat”

Since I have returned to school, I officially have class on Wednesdays and might be unable to watch the weekly showing of “I Used to Be Fat” on MTV.

Tune in tonight at 10/9c!

MTV’s “I Used to Be Fat” – Dominick

The first guy on MTV’s new reality show, “I Used to Be Fat,” Dominick comes from a large food-living family. His goal is to shove off to culinary school (or food college) a smaller-better-at-tennis version of himself.

His trainer, Saran, is CRAZY! The minute I saw her I knew she’d be nuts-oh about exercise. I said, “She’s going to kill him!”  She tore that kid apart. She tore that family apart. (She also tore the kitchen apart.)

Joann, his mother, worried me. She is morbidly unhealthy. Morbidly. And, had Dominick not taken the chance, he may have followed in her shoes. I hope she took advantage of the situation like her son did.

(By the way, I’m glad he packed up and went to a private culinary school. The cord needs to be cut.)

Dominick began his summer at 306 pounds.

After torturous exercise and a not-so-grueling diet (because the food he was eating looked delicious) for 110 days, Dominick weighed 219 pounds.

“Oh my God, I made my goal!” That’s what he said. (And he said he had fun… Really?) Good job Dominick! Make delicious food!

(AND HIS MOM LOST 64 pounds?!?! GO MOM!)