A dilemma

I’ve got one.

I have the opportunity to eat some absolutely delicious, fried in trans fat saturated oil, covered in cheesy glory goodness tonight.

What will I do?

I’ve been a good girl, mind you. I know I have! I’ve been eating well, seriously cutting back on anything sweets or sugar related. I barely even eat bread! (Okay, except for recently because Husband and I are almost out of food and sandwiches are awesome.) I’ve also been a recent gym rat working out at least four days a week even though I want to do five or six. I’ve been a good girl!

(Today’s workout was actually kinda nice! I pushed myself on that treadmill, yo!)

But does this good girl stint allow me to have one night of marvelous indulgence of wonderfully-spiced Mexican food???

Probably not.

I’ll just have a salad… and one margarita… and maybe some chips and salsa… maybe some queso (I love queso)…

AH! This is bad! This is very bad!

What is my motivation for not indulging in a feast of empty calories and fried deliciousness?

I lost a half inch in my belly pooch and around my hips!

“Do you want it to come back Shae???”


“That’s what I thought!”

I’ll just have a bloody salad, but I’m having dressing, darn it!

“No, you’re not.”


Bad, bad, bad skinnyshae!

UPDATE: Well, I ate Mexican food.

However, I did not eat the tortilla and stayed far away from the rice. My downfall was sodium (hilarious note: the government’s new suggested serving size of salt was showing on TV at the same time); I ate chips, salsa, cheese and beans.

Oh. So. Good.

I was going to be done. I stopped eating when I was full. But, then, they… they ordered fried ice cream! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW LONG IT’S BEEN SINCE I’VE HAD ICE CREAM?

Suffice it to say, a long friggin’ time.

So I also ate ice cream. I am going to feel crappy tomorrow. :(

Thankfully, I was told that I am allowed to have cheat days :) which basically means I can eat whatever I want for like one meal a week, but then still have to workout extra the next day. (I don’t know how it works…)

Mexican food + ice cream + The Rite (starring Anthony Hopkins) + birthday (not mine) – class = good night!

(Also Anthony Hopkins is creepy. Really, really creepy.)

Dinner Tonight: Herb roasted chicken and vegetables

Let me just say that handling a whole raw chicken is the most hilarious, most disgusting thing I have ever done.


Herb Roasted Chicken

  • 1/4 cup fresh or 4 teaspoons dried herbs of your choice
  • 1/4 tsp. salt and 1/4 tsp. pepper
  • 1-3 lb. whole broiler, fryer chicken (I could only five a 5 lb. bird)
  • 2 cups 1/2-inch-long carrot pieces (so four… ?)
  • 1 cup pearl onions (or one large regular onion)
  • 2 tsp. olive oil
  • 1 10 oz. package of frozen peas
  • Add 1 pound red potatoes, quartered

Combine herbs, salt and pepper. Rinse chicken; pat dry. Loosen skin and spread herb rub under skin. (This was the weirdly gross part.) Tie legs to tail (I skewered them), and skewer neck and back skin together (I had no idea how to do this). Twist wings under back.

Place breast side up on rack in a shallow roasting pan. Roast uncovered for 30 minutes at 375 degrees F.

In a 1 1/2 quart casserole, combine vegetables (except peas). Toss with remaining herb rub and oil. Cover; place in oven. Roast 45 minutes more or until chicken is no longer pink in center and juices run clear (180 degrees F). Add peas during last 15 minutes.

(I just added the veggies to the same roasting pan. It works… I suppose.)

This makes six servings at 293 calories per serving.

Check it out.


Herb Roasted Whole Chicken with Vegetables
Looks tasty!










One word: Juicy.

I actually cooked chicken that was not dry! Go me!

The taste was interesting. Maybe my herb mixture (rosemary, thyme, basil and garlic) was not a delicious together as I had assumed it would be. The vegetables were tender (I forgot the peas), but has little extra flavor than their actual vegetable flavor. I gave it to Husband with BBQ sauce just in case he hated it.

And that is this episode of Dinner Tonight!

(How in the world do I store this thing???)

A&E’s HEAVY: Two people’s journey to stay alive (Part 2)

Rickywayne and Jessica are A&E’s second pair of Heavy participants.

Wife and mother, 28-year-old Jessica’s life is in danger of heart disease, stroke and heart attack. At her first weigh-in, her weight is 289 pounds. Her morbid obesity is due to tragedies in her past -being molested at age 10. However, Jessica is determined to change her life and lose weight in order to keep her children from finding her “laid out” somewhere.

Rickywayne, 35, who suffers from lymph swelling and draining, has been heavy all of his life, since childhood. At his first weigh-in, his weight is 555 pounds. His morbid obesity is due to a food addiction, which he turned to because of his mother’s illnesses and guilt he felt for her death. While big all his life, Rickywayne wants to lose the weight before his life ends before 45.

Jessica and Rickywayne begin their journey, like Jodi and Tom before them, at the weight-loss facility with the help of trainers Britny and David.

Their trainers describe the differences in their personalities. Jessica is fearful and in pain; David thinks she wants someone to give in to her crying. Rickywayne, on the other hand, has the look of a “tiger” in his eyes. David sees him succeeding in short-term, but long-term changes would be harder.

At their first weigh-in at the facility, Rickywayne lost 15 pounds, but Jessica only lost 3. Her only consolation is that she is gaining muscle mass at a higher percentage than her partner (because he is heavier than her). A few weeks later, Rickywayne drops another 12 pounds, but Jessica barely sees any lost at all with a total of only 8 pounds lost.

Pool exercises are an easy way for obese people to get exercise in without damaging joints or causing unnecessary pain. Unfortunately, Jessica is terrified, and Rickywayne has the open wound that prevents him from getting in the water. Jessica eventually defeats her fears and is able to complete workouts in the pool, and Rickywayne is cleared by his doctor to get in with the wound on his leg.

Rickywayne is a fish. A large fish, but a fish. He swims better than I do.

On the last day of the first month, Jessica’s total weight loss is 16 pounds. (Eight days later, she loses another 10 pounds.) Rickywayne’s total weight loss was 48 pounds.

While I contribute most of Rickywayne’s weight loss to his structured diet, exercise certainly helped him reach his goals. Jessica’s weight loss I would contribute strictly to exercise because she is also gaining muscle mass. Of course, the severe difference in weight-loss between Jessica and Rickywayne has other contributing factors: initial weight, gender, hormones and life experiences.

(Unfortunately for us girls, it always seems to be harder for us to take off the weight. For men, it freakin’ melts!)

After gaining one pound on the day 45 weigh-in, Jessica completely changes her demeanor. She became a new person and continued to push herself past her limit (while admitting it was easier once her children had returned to school). After losing 52 pounds total, she is approved for surgery to remove the excess skin left behind by her weight loss, which will inevitably make it easier for her to lose more and more weight.

Rickywayne’s progress is at a standstill after returning home. While his family and friends are supportive, they are not supportive in the way that Rickywayne needs. Britny is worried that his enablers with continue to enable him (or make fun of him for not eating stuffed pork loin).

During a grocery trip, Rickywayne discovers that he is not ready to go at it alone. After calling Britny to help him choose a lunch meat, he decides to go back to the facility. Out of fear of food and overeating, Rickywayne returns to the facility to get more education, more support and help and more tools.

On day 81, Jessica goes into surgery and comes back a lighter (less encumbered) individual. With the excess skin removed, she will be able to rock out some harder workouts.

On day 90, Rickywayne destroyed his weight-loss wall at the facility. Fifty days later, he returns home on his own.

The progress both made through the show is astounding: At the final weigh-in, Rickywayne lost a total of 127 pounds for a final weight of 427. Jessica lost a total of 72 pounds, 12 pounds more than her hoped for goal. Her final weight is 217.

I am sorry this review was late. Mondays are officially night classes for your skinny little friend here. Three hours of Mass Comm, and I hate all technology (usually).

In my opinion, A&E is doing a fantastic thing for people (like the thing that “I Used to Be Fat” is doing for their teenage counterparts).


Too much to do

Laundry day again! Hopefully, I can get my clothes clean and get home in time to make Herb-Roasted Chicken and Vegetables (recipe to come if I actually make it).

While I’m doing laundry at my mother (who happens to be awesome)’s house, I am also doing homework. Lots and lots of homework. It is depressing. :(

I have to complete my lecture discussion, CITI Training and my readings before Monday, Wednesday and, finally, Thursday. While I am aware that is it only Saturday, the sooner it gets done, the sooner I don’t have to do it and can start on the next week of work. This system will work for about five weeks before I start getting behind in every class -no matter how hard I try to stay on track.

Because of my inability to be a studious… student… for extended amounts of time (i.e. an entire semester), my blogging might take the back burner to graduate school. I don’t necessarily feel badly about this, but I would rather be blogging. Know that and feel for me.

In other news, Power Yoga this morning was refreshing! I had a lot on my mind and was worried about everything. There is nothing quite like yoga to get you out of your own head and find a place to be quiet and calm (even when you’re in standing splitz or doing your nth chaturanga).

I hope you can find the same quiet I found in practice today.


A pleasant late morning

I slept until 11:12 this morning, which means I only had an hour to wake up, get dressed and get to the YMCA before my yoga class began.

I made it, but I didn’t have time to run before yoga and had no desire to run after yoga (plus I was starving because I didn’t eat breakfast – no time!).

I would feel bad, but it is a rare occasion when Husband and I get to sleep in bed at the same time, so I stayed in bed. We snuggled for about half an hour before I realized I had to get up or I would miss class completely. (And Lord know I don’t want to miss class because I love yoga.)

Instead of continuing to workout in any way, I came home, ate some of Husband’s chicken chili stew and a piece of dark chocolate that Ashley R. bought for me. She such a lovely present-giver. :)

Remember how I had class last night and couldn’t watch MTV’s “I Used to Be Fat?” Well, I saw half of the episode today, and these are my thoughts.

Point 1: Joey, the trainer, is gorgeous.

Point 2: Jordan, who turned to food for comfort after a rough childhood, weighed 272 pounds at his first weigh-in. One hundred and ten days later, Jordan weighed 205 pounds, five more lost than his goal and 15 pounds of muscle gained.

He changed his entire outlook on life and food and his relationship with his mother after his weight transformation. That’s pretty impressive. Now, he has life goals and works at a gym in order to get closer to being a personal trainer himself.

Losing weight changed Jordan completely.

He worked out six hours a day, six days a week, ate healthy food every day for every meal (no cheating after he got caught once) and LOST SO MUCH WEIGHT!

I work out usually five days a week nowhere near six hours. Can I do the same thing? What about you? What do you do to lose the weight?

(And do you sneak doughnuts, which I still haven’t eaten one, when you get a sugar craving?) :)


You know how they say, “Stressed is desserts spelled backwards?” Well, what if you are swearing off desserts and just ran out of dried cherries? What if you are avoiding sugar like the plague when all you want is a doughnut? What are you supposed to do?

I’ll tell you what: Take a nap. Unless, you are me, of course.

Unfortunately, I am unable to sleep because I’ll crash and miss my night class, in which I am sure I have an assignment of some kind (and because of said night class, I will miss “I Used to Be Fat” tonight and will probably be unable to report on it).

I did not workout today; and while I don’t have a good reason, I feel like I am justified.

I’m pooped.

My body is tuckered from exercise and being awake ALL the time. My brain is exhausted from reading chapter after chapter and research article after journal article.

I am just pooped.

I’m so tired I’m jealous of my crippled house cat who can sleep wherever and whenever he wants. Currently, the little snot is sprawled out next to me yawning and stretching and sleeping just like the little snot that he is.


I am also at very many levels of stressed out. My time is now torn between being a good student, being a good teacher, trying to see my friends, cooking, cleaning, studying, exercising, remembering to shower and brush my teeth and, most importantly, trying to spend time with Husband (who probably doesn’t want to hang out with his snippy, tired, smelly wife). And who could blame him, or any of my friends for that matter? I barely want to be around me right now.

My second semester of grad school has barely even started, and I’m already turning in a panicked spaz face. I do not like this version of Shae. She’s grumpy.

Hopefully, since I spent all afternoon determined to finish the readings for my three wonderful classes (which I did), I will feel less pooped and stressed out and want to workout.

What do you do when you’re stressed? Do you eat desserts? :) Or do you take the initiative and run off the stress? For me, I just want to take a nap.

Guess what’s for “Dinner Tonight…”???

HUSBAND COOKED IT! :) A delicious chicken chili stew – one of our favorites, but I haven’t the slightest idea what the real recipe is!